Busy Busy Busy

I am dealing with an NSF situation right now. No~ not in my bank account, in my attitude. The last couple of weeks have been crazy. JJ was sick for about a week. Now he is better, and Daniel is sick. One being sick makes that one extra needy, and in return makes the other more needy as well because someone is getting more attention. Jchon has had a slightly altered work schedule this week, meaning that instead of being home for dinner, if traffic goes well he makes it just in time to hose off the kids and tuck them into bed. I have been to the urgent care clinic for myself for twice in the last week and a half. It is 9:00 pm, and my child who is always alseep between 630-645, is still awake. It has just been one of those (2) weeks. My car's transmission has been slipping and there is no way we can afford a car payment right now. In addition, I am watching my mom's adorable but not yet potty trained 12 week old puppy. I am just feeling a bit overwhelmed. I would not give up my job as a stay at home mom for anything!!! But, every resentment for broken promises, every negative word, lack of appreciation and when things dont go as planned~results in a withdrawl from my emotional tank. That earlier mentioned NSF notice appears as a short fuse. I am finding myself quick to frustration and it breaks my heart. I feel like I need some emotional deposits - appreciation, recognition and maybe even a little adoration. But, instead of some deposits, I know I need a reality check. Even if jchon is not here to help as much (and naturally this is a week that I REALLY could use the extra help), I am not a single parent. I keep thinking of all those women (and men) that are working 2-3 jobs just to stay afloat and NEVER get a break. My entire family is very healthy (a small virus is nothing- I have friends with a child the same age as JJ with lukemia). We are all loved, healthy, have food in our tummies, a roof over our heads, and are wealthier than 95% of people in this world. We are so overwhelmingly blessed. I am so thankful for all that God has blessed me with. I am going to try to get a good night's sleep and hopefully tomorrow will dawn brighter and with a better attitude;-). I wish you all sweet dreams of our beautiful realities. Tschuss